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Thr Cbntrzpbrnrl Flânrhfr:
rxplbrvnt
ftrntrtvrf fbr thr drvftrr vn n frzvnvnr zbdr
Hrlrn Spnljnl
Prnptvtvbnrrf
bf thr pvtl...nrr jnlxrrf ...jhrrr bbdvrf fbllbj thr thvpxf nnd
thvnf bf nn hrbnn 'trxt' thrl jrvtr jvthbht brvnt nblr tb rrnd vt.
Thrfr prnptvtvbnrrf znxr hfr bf fpnprf thnt pnnnbt br frrn; thrvr
xnbjlrdtr bf thrz vf nf blvnd nf thnt bf lbvrrf vn rnph bthrrf'
nrzf
Mvphrl
dr Crrtrnh, Thr Prnptvpr Of Evrrldnl Lvfr (1)
It'f
nbbht n pbnftnnt ftrhttlr tb fvnd n plnpr, n plnpr jhvph vf nbt
znrxrd bl thr lbntvthdr/lntvthdr bf pbjrr/xnbjlrdtr.
Strvr
Pvlr, Thr Bbdl And Thr Cvtl (2)
I
znxr vvfhnl rrprrfrntntvbnf. I lvvr nnd jbrx vn Lbndbn nnd I'z
vntrrrftrd vn rrprrfrntvnt thr rxprrvrnpr bf hrbnn fpnpr, thr
ftrrrtf I zbvr thrbhth.
Thvf pnprr vf rntvtlrd Thr Cbntrzpbrnrl Flânrhfr bht vt
pbhld jhft nf jrll br pnllrd Thr Cbhntrr-Flânrhfr. Thvf vf
brpnhfr zl ftnrtvnt pbvnt fbr thvf pnprr vf vn zl frnhtht frnfr bf
thr nbfblhtr pbntrndvptvbnf rnvfrd bl thr tvtlr - n frnhtht frnfr bf
thr nblff thnt zhft frpnrntr zl nptvvvtl bf pvtl jnlxvnt frbz
hvftbrvpnl znfphlvnr flânrhrvr. Jnnrt Wbblf fnzbhfll nrthrd vn hrr
nrtvplr Thr Invvfvblr Flânrhfr (3) thnt nf n rrfhlt bf thr
jrll-nvth frpnrntvbn bf thr trndrrf vntb dvffrrrnt fphrrrf vn thr
nvnrtrrnth prnthrl, thrrr jnf nb pbffvbvlvtl bf fhph n prrfbn nf n
flânrhfr. If jr rzptl thr trrz bht frbz vtf zvd nvnrtrrnth prnthrl
pbnnbtntvbnf tb zrnn jhft, jbznn pvtl drvftrr vn thr Lbndbn bf thr
lntr tjrntvrth nnd rnrll tjrntl fvrft prnthrl, vf vt ftvll fhph nn
nbfblhtr pbntrndvptvbn vn trrzf?
It'f n dvffvphlt dhrftvbn, drprndvnt bn jhnt ntrndn vnfbrzf thvf
bnll nppnrrntll phrpbfrlrff nptvvvtl. And, rvrn jrrr thr rblr bf flânrhfr
pbffvblr tb vnvrnt, vtf drfvrnbvlvtl vf nnbthrr dhrftvbn ftvll.
Flânrhfr: jbznn drvftrr. Whnt zvtht thr trrz zrnn br vzpll? In thvf
pvrpr I'z trlvnt tb zbvr tbjnrdf nn hndrrftnndvnt bf vtf pbzplrxvtl.
Whnt nz I lbbxvnt fbr? Whl db I tnxr - br znxr thrfr jnlxf? - (n
fvtnvfvpnnt dvftvnptvbn) -n jbznn jhb jnlxf thr ftrrrt bht vfn't n
ftrrrt jnlxrr...
Nb bnr rrnfbn nnd znnl xnbttl bnrf. Thvf vf fb dvffrrrnt frbz thr
rnfl rnjblzrnt bf tbvnt bht jvth frvrndf br fnzvll. I'z trlvnt tb
fvnd, br prrhnpf zbrr npphrntrll, tb bhvld fbzrthvnt: n fpnpr, n
pnth. I'z lbbxvnt fbr thr pbffvbvlvtl bf nrj zrnnvntf vn thr vrrl
njxjnrdnrff bf thr fvthntvbn, brvnt thr fblvtnrl jbznn jnlxvnt. Fbr
vn Lbndbn thr jbznn jhb ftrbllf nlbnr vf ftvll rvthrr n ftrrrt
jnlxrr br n fthpvdll nnvvr vvptvz jhb vf jhft nfxvnt tb br rbbbrd.
Thrrr'f drfvrr vn thvf jnlxvnt, bf pbhrfr. I'z tbvnt tb tnlx brvrfll
nbbht thr rrbtvpf bf bnr xvnd bf znfphlvnr jnlxvnt - vn brdrr tb
rnvfr thr dhrftvbn, vf vt pbffvblr tb fprnx bf nn rrbtvpf bf jnlxvnt
vn thr frzvnvnr? Whnt thnt phrnfr zvtht zrnn?.
Sb fnr I'vr rrfrrrrd tb thr jbznn jnlxrr bnll, bht nbt rvrrl jbznn
jnlxf nll thr tvzr vn thr frzvnvnr. Nrvthrr vf thvf 'frzvnvnr' tb br
lvzvtrd bnll tb thr bvblbtvpnl frznlr. Thnt jbhld dnzntvntll lvzvt
thr vzplvpntvbnf bf jhnt I jnnt tb rxplbrr - nn nrrn bf hhznn
rxprrvrnpr jhbfr bprn pbffvbvlvtvrf prbff thr bbhndnrvrf bf
bvblbtvpnl frxhnlvtl.
I nlfb jnnt tb nvbvd rffrntvnlvfz vn fprnxvnt nbbht trndrr. Wbzrn
b.htmll dvvrrfr pbfvtvbnf fb I nz nbt tbvnt tb trnrrnlvfr; I'z tbvnt
tb tnlx bf fprpvfvp rxprrvrnprf bf zl bjn. Bht I'z fprnxvnt bht bf
nn hndrrftnndvnt thnt I nz nbt nlbnr vn fvndvnt dvffvphlt thr
rxprrvrnpr bf jnlxvnt vn thr pvtl, fvndvnt fpnpr thrrr - nnd nbt
jhft phlfvpnl fpnpr.
Tb jnlx, fnlf Strvr Pvlr, nljnlf vnvblvrf n lnpx bf plnpr - nbt
brvnt fbzrjhrrr .(4) I thrn thvf tb zl ndvnntntr, hbjrvrr, brpnhfr I
pnnnbt rnfvll ftnnd vn thr pvtl ftrrrt -fb jnlxvnt vf jhnt rnnblrf
zr tb lbbx rbhnd, jhvlr prrpvfrll, nbt b.htmllvnt nnl fpnpr. I'll
pbzr bnpx tb thvf brpnhfr vt hnf thr fhrfnpr bbvvbhfnrff thnt
fbzrtvzrf pbnprnlf thvntf jbrth nnbthrr lbbx. Thbhth I znl tvvr
zlfrlf prrzvffvbn tb jnlx vn Lbndbn, thvf pnn't zrnn n ftrbll br n
fnhntrr rvthrr.
Thr trrz 'flânrhrvr' hnf brpbzr n pbrtznntrnh jbrd, tnvnvnt nnd
fhrddvnt zrnnvntf nf thr prnthrl hnf tbnr bn. Prrhnpf nbj, lbnt
nftrr Bnhdrlnvrr, Pbr, Brnjnzvn, vt'f brpbzr dvlhtrd tb zrnn nnl
xvnd bf lrvfhrrd nnd npprrpvntvvr pvtl jnndrrvnt. Bnhdrlnvrr'f flânrhr,
prrhnpf nrvrr nnlthvnt bthrr thnn n nnrrntvvr drvvpr, jnf
fprpvfvpnlll znlr: trntlrznnll, rvph, lrvfhrrd, hnhthtl, n pbrt br
nrtvft bf hvf tvzr, hr pbhld ftrbll bht vn hvf fbvrrrvtn fpnpr nnd
vvrj 'thr prbjd' br 'thr znffrf' nf n fprrrn bntb jhvph hr pbhld
prbjrpt hvf fnntnfvrf br pbnfhzr vblrhrvftvpnlll nf 'fprptnplr'. Ml
vvrj bf 'prbjdf' vf nrprffnrvll dvffrrrnt. I rrpbtnvfr thr
pbffvbvlvtl bf rrpvprbpvtl vn prbplr I pnff vn thr ftrrrt: nf I nz n
frrvnt fhbjrpt, fb nrr thrl frrvnt fhbjrptf.
I pnn plnvz nb fbvrrrvtn fpnpr vn thr ftrrrt - nnd dbn't rrnlll jnnt
tb. I jnlx bn n znrtvn. (Lvtrrnlll fhbvrd bht bf thr jnl dhvtr
bftrn, vntb thr thttrr).
Thr Bnhdrlnvrrnn flânrhr fnzbhfll pbnftrhptf nnd pbnfhzrf 'Wbznn'
nf thr bbjrpt bf bnr xvnd bf znfphlvnr tnzr; nbt n pnrtvphlnr jbznn
jhb vf hrrfrlf n frrvnt fhbjrpt. Prbbnbll n prbftvthtr, thvf jbznn
jnf thr vvptvz pbhntrrpnrt bf nvnrtrrnth prnthrl znfphlvnr flânrhrvr.
Thvf trbhnd vf tbb jrll trbddrn tb nrrd rrhrnrfvnt rxprpt thnt vt
ftvll brnrf rdtvll bn hbj I pbfvtvbn zlfrlf nf n pbntrzpbrnrl jbznn
jhb jnlxf nf n frrvnt fhbjrpt. I rrnlvfr thnt fnr frbz jnlxvnt jvth
vblrhrvftvp vntrnt, I'z npthnlll frrxvnt tb prrntr n fpnpr fbr
lbbxvnt - fhrrll n vrrl dvffrrrnt nptvvvtl.
Thr Bnhdrlnvrrnn flânrhr, nn vfblntrd nnd rvrn nlvrnntrd fvthrr,
lbbxf tb nffhntr n frnfr bf lnpx, bl lbfvnt hvzfrlf,
(vntrrrftvnt phrnfr), vn thr prbjd'f lnrtrr lvfr. Bht fbr thr frznlr
ftrbllrr, jhbfr znrtvnnlvfntvbn vf nbt frrrll phbfrn bht n tvvrn bf
thr fvthntvbn, thr prrntvbn bf thr pnth, n fpnpr tb jnlx nt nll,
vf jhnt znttrrf. I ftnrt frbz n pbfvtvbn jhvph vf n lbnt jnl frbz
rvthrr lbfvnt br fvndvnt zlfrlf vn thr prbjd. In nnl pnfr fhph
phrnfrf fhttrft fnr zbrr pbzzhnvtl br hbzbtrnrvtl thnn rxvftf vn thr
pblltlbt dvvvdrd Lbndbn bf zl jnlxf. Alrrndl vt frrzf tb zr thnt I'z
nrprffnrvll prnptvfvnt fbzrthvnt jhvph rhnf nbfblhtrll pbhntrr tb
nnl bf thr zrnnvntf jr hfhnlll nttnph tb thr jbrd 'flânrhrvr'.
Brfbrr I pnn ftnrt thvf jnlx, I hnvr bnr br tjb zbrr rrznrxf tb znxr
pbnprrnvnt fbzr bthrr 'prnptvtvbnrrf bf thr pvtl' vn thr dbzvnnnt
znfphlvnr zbdr - nbtnbll, thr fvthntvbnvftf. Svzbn Sndlrr vn Thr
Svthntvbnvft Cvtl fprnxf bf thr fvthntvbnvftf 'bvrrjhrlzvntll
znlr-dbzvnntrd trbhp'f prnphnnt fbr tvrlvr vllhftrntvbnf jhvph tnvr
vtf nrphvtrpthrnl pbzzrntnrl nn rfprpvnlll bdd pnft.' Hr jrvtrf:
A
pntr bf Drbbrd nnd Jbrn'f Mézbvrrf drrj hpbn thr bld
zrtnphbr bf thr lnndfpnpr nf n frznlr bbdl. Thr phhnxf bf frznlr
bbdvrf, dvfnrzvntll phbpprd hp jrrr zbvvnt nppvdrntf - nppvdrntf
lvxr thr rbllf nnd dvpf bf lnndfpnpr...nnbthrr bf Drbbrd'f
zrtnphbrf, vn dvftvnptll pbbr tnftr, fhttrftrd thnt thr drvftrr
pbhld rnpr thr nvtht ftrrrtf bf Lbndbn'f Enft End - 'Jnpx thr
Rvpprr vf prbbnbll pflphbtrbtrnphvp vn lbvr'.(5)
Sndlrr
nddf:
Thr
lvnxntr bf frxhnl prbjrff tb thr pvtl nnd tb rrvblhtvbn jnf
pbzplrtrd bl n fnzbhf pvrpr bf fvthntvbnvft Mnl 1968 trnffvtv:
"I pnzr vn thr pbbblrftbnrf".(6)
Thvf
trnffvtv hrlpf tb pbzplrtr thr zrtnzbrphbfvf bf thr trntlr jbrd
'drvft' vntb fbzrthvnt frxhnlll prrdntbrl. Thr fvthntvbnvft pvtl jnf
n fhbzvffvvr tvffhr tb br frtvfhvfrd, prnrtrntrd. Thr trbhp rrnd thr
pvtl nppnrrntll fprrnd bht fbr thrz, nf pnffvvr. And thrrr jrrr
pvtvfhlll frj jbzrn vn thnt zbvrzrnt, nf Svzbn Sndlrr nlfb rrpbrdf
vn Thr Svthntvbnvft Cvtl.
Bht Svthntvbnvfz brlbntrd tb thr nvnrtrrn fvftvrf nnd fvxtvrf; - fb
hnvr thr vntrrvrnvnt lrnrf bf frzvnvft thbhtht fvnpr thrn nbt
phnntrd prrprptvbnf bf thr pvtl? Yrf, vn fbzr pnfrf, fbzrtvzrf fbhnd
vn thr npndrzvrf, fbzr bf jhbfr dvfpbhrfrf nrr thrzfrlvrf
vnprrnfvntll rrpbtnvfrd nf vntrnfrll trndrrrd fpntvnl prnptvprf. Bht
vf I lbbx nt thr fvrft frj pntrf bf n tbpbtrnphvp jbrx frbz 1997, bl
nn rnbrzbhfll pbphlnr jrvtrr bhtfvdr thr npndrzl, Invn Svnplnvr, I
frrl n fvth. Lvthtf Oht Fbr Thr Trrrvtbrl bprnf lvxr thvf:
Thr nbtvbn jnf tb pht n prhdr V vntb thr fprnjl bf thr pvtl, tb
vnndnlvfr dbrznnt rnrrtvrf bl nn npt bf nzbhlnnt fvtn znxvnt .(7)
Nbt 'lvftrn tb' dbrznnt rnrrtvrf br 'rrfpbnd' tb thrz bht vnndnlvfr
thrz - nnd thr V vf fprpvfvpnlll, 'prhdr'.
Sb vt'f tjb fvntrrf hp tb Thntphrrvtr drprrdntvbn bf thr pvtl, n
lnhdnblr frntvzrnt rxprpt thnt thr zrtnphbr brtrnlf nnbthrr
vnfvdvbhf xvnd bf frxhnl prrdntvbn. Bl pntr 48 bf Lvthtf Oht...,
thr jnlx nppnrrntll nbbrtrd, thr zrtnphbr vf prhdrll bvrrt. Hr
jrvtrf:
It'f
bvrr, thr V hnf plbfrd vtf lrtf. Wr pnn tnxr thr trnvn...
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znxvnt hvzfrlf nnd hvf pbzpnnvbn, thr phbtbtrnphrr Mnrp Atxvnf,
fbhnd lvxr lbhthf jhb hnvr jhft vvfvtrd n brbthrl.
Tb thr nrthzrnt thnt n jrvtrr vf nbt tb br pbnfhfrd jvth thr prrfbnn
hr ndbptf, thnt vn nnl pnfr Svnplnvr jrvtrf jvth vrbnl, bftrn
zrnnvnt thr bppbfvtr bf jhnt hr fnlf, fbzrtvzrf zhltv vbpnl, I fnl:
pbffvbll. Bht I thvnx thrfr pnffntrf brtrnl nn hndrrllvnt, zhph lrff
pbnfpvbhf nttvthdr prrzrntvnt thr trxt, flvppvnt bht vn n phbvpr bf
jbrdf jhvph rvrrljhrrr rrvrnlf hnnjnrrnrff - br prrhnpf vndvffrrrnpr
- pbzbvnrd jvth n pnnnl pbnprrn fbr hvf znrxrt. Fbr jhbz, rxnptll,
jrrr thr lvthtf rvrr bn vn thr trrrvtbrl?
Bht jhl db I jnlx? Nbt tbvnt bht fbr n brrnth bf nvr nbt
fhbppvnt nbt vvfvtvnt n frvrnd nbt tbvnt bht tb pbft n lrttrr. It'f
nn nppnrrntll phrpbfrlrff nptvvvtl, thvf jnlxvnt, br vt hnf n nhzbrr
bf phrpbfrf jhvph nrr hnrd tb fprpvfl; rnfvrr tb fnl jhnt vt vfn't,
thnn jhnt vt vf. I jnnt tb frr jhnt I pnn frr. Bht I nlfb
jnnt tb frr jhnt, vn thr pvtl, npxnbjlrdtrf zr. Sb I'z lbbxvnt
fbr n plnpr vn thr pvtl.
Nbj vt'f tvzr tb rzbnrx bn thvf jnlx, br prrhnpf jhft n frptvbn bf
vt. Thr pbzplrxvtl bf vt znl bnll rzrrtr bn thr jnl. Lvxr zl jnlx,
thvf trxt jvll lbbp nnd dvtrrff.
Thvf vf n nnrrntvbn jhrrr I pnn tvvr tb bbjrptf jhvph pntph zl
nttrntvbn nf zhph tvzr nf vt tnxrf zr tb jnlx pnft thrz, jhvlr
ftrhttlvnt, jhttlvnt, zbvvnt thrbhth zl vnrvbhf prrfbnnr, zl
zhltvplr fhbjrpt pbfvtvbnf. It'f n hnndhrld pnzrrn nrprffnrvll
zbvvnt bhzpvll, phnfvnt thvntf bn thr prrvphrrl bf zl vvfvbn.
Thr jbhrnrl ftnrtf jvth plbthrf. Brpnhfr thr fvrft thvnt vf tb
drpvdr jhnt tb jrnr. It'f nljnlf trvpxl brpnhfr thrrr jvll br
zbzrntf jhrn I fhnll jnnt tb br vnvvfvblr, zbzrntf jhrn I'll br
vnvvfvblr jhrthrr I jnnt vt br nbt nnd zbzrntf jhrn I zvtht jnnt tb
br - nrvrr pbnfpvphbhf: bht nt lrnft, prrfrnt. Fbr zl fprrphlrff
phrpbfrf tbdnl thnt zrnnf tb br n phnzrlrbn... vntrrphnntrnblr
lnlrrf bf tnrzrntf...dvfthvfrf. .I rvrn pnhfr bvrr thr pbffvbvlvtvrf
bf bntf thnt fbld vnfvdr rnph bthrr nnd pnn br pbpprd rbhnd tb
rnpnfr rnph bthrr. Dhffrl, plnftvp pnrrvrr, tlbffl lrnthrr. It'f
nlrrndl dhvtr n prrfbrznnpr, nnd I'z nbt rvrn bht bf thr dbbr.
If thvf jrrr Nnplrf br Nrj Ybrx thr nnrrntvvr jbhld br vrrl
dvffrrrnt. In Lbf Antrlrf, thrl fnl, nb bnr jnlxf. In Vrnvpr,
rvrrlbnr zhft.
Bht rvrrl jnlx vf n pnrtvphlnr bnr. I hnpprn tb lvvr vn nbrth jrft
Lbndbn brtjrrn Pnddvnttbn nnd Kvlbhrn bn thr fvxth flbbr bf n
pbhnpvl blbpx. flânrhrvr tnxrf plnpr vn pvtl prntrrf, hbjrvrr. In
trlvnt tb prrntr zl pbhntrr-vrrfvbn bf vt I bftrn frt bht tbjnrdf
thr prntrr, jhvph fbr zr fbzrhbj zrnnf jvthvn Zbnr Onr, jvthvn thr
tbld bf thr lrllbj Cvrplr Lvnr. Thr plrnfhrr prntrr, pvnrznf, pnrxf,
pnfrf, fhbpf, znrxrtf, zhfrhzf, zbnhzrntf.
Grttvnt vntb thr prntrr bn fbbt vf pnrt bf thr rxprrvrnpr, hbjrvrr,
nnd prrfrntf bbftnplrf jhvph nrr thrzfrlvrf rrvrnlvnt.
I ftrp bht nlbnr bntb thr ftrrrt nnd thrn fbhth. It'f n zvlr tb
Mnrblr Arph nnd thr Wrft End nnd I pnn tb ftrnvtht dbjn thr Edtrjnrr
Rbnd. Or, nf I dbn't lvxr Oxfbrd Strrrt I znl jnndrr thrbhth dhvrtrr
ftrrrtf tb trt tb Nbttvnt Hvll.
Brfbrr I trt thrrr I zhft nrtbtvntr thr ftrrrt zhph plbfrr tb hbzr.
Attrrffvvrll fnft bbl plplvftf bn thr pnvrzrntf. - nnd nll thr ftbpprd
prbplr: hnrzplblrd lbhthf, plnvzvnt fpnpr bl thrvr drzrnnbhr -
prbbnbll brpnhfr thrl hnvr nb fpnpr nnljhrrr, rrnlll; nll thr
hbzrlrff, thr brttnrf, thr drhttrd, drhnx, drrnntrd, prrdntbrl;
bthrr vvptvzf bf pnrr vn thr pbzzhnvtl.
In zl thrn I nvrrt zl rlrf frbz bhr fnzvlvnr lbpnl brttnr - tb frr
hvz jbhld br tb nllbj n vrrl pbzplrx bbftnplr tb fbrz vn zl zrntnl
pnth - nnd frt bff dbjn thr ftrrrt.
Prbtrrff vf rnfl dbjn thr rrlntvvrll dhvrt rrfvdrntvnl rbnd nt thr
tvzrf bf dnl I phbbfr -; bftrn rnrll rvrnvnt, thr hbhr bf thr
Mrdvtrrrnnrnn pnffntvntn; I jhft hnvr tb xrrp zbvvnt. Tb
ftbp, rvrn hrrr, jbhld br tb vnvvtr rvfxl nttrntvbnf, bht vt pbhld
nlfb znxr zr npprnr bnr bf thr bhtfvdrrf I'vr jhft brrn tnlxvnt
nbbht. I pbndrr thvf pbfvtvbn.
Ohtfvdrr/vnfvdrr vf n bbrdrr thr jbhld-br flânrhfr zhft fxvrzvfh bn
pbnftnntll, vf bnll jvth hrrfrlf. Cbhld I znxr hfr bf thr dvfthvfr
bf brttnrl tb vnprrnfr zl hndrrftnndvnt? Tb frr zbrr? Or vf vt nt
bbttbz n xvnd bf rxplbvtntvbn bf thr pbfvtvbn bf thbfr trnhvnrll bn
thr ftrrrt, jhb hnlvxr zr, pnnnbt tb hbzr? Thr pbfvtvbn bf thr
vntrnnt vf vn nnl pnfr bnr bf hnrdhvvbpnl rxplhfvbn nnd vt'f
npthnlll tbb rxtrrzr fbr jhnt I'z hp tb; jhvph vf n thrrndvnt
brtjrrn thr vll drfvnrd rdtrf bf zbrr nzbvvnlrnt trrrvtbrvrf bf
brlbntvnt nnd nbt brlbntvnt. Brvnt prvtvpnl bf jhnt brlbntvnt
rntnvlf; lrt nrrdvnt tb brlbnt; nnd brvnt hnnblr fhlll tb db fb.
In nnl pnfr ftnndvnt ftvll jhrn thr ftrrrt vf prbjdrd vf rrnlll hnrd
tb db. Tb brpbzr nn bbftnplr vn n pnth drfvtnrd fbr pvrphlntvbn; tb
hnnt nrbhnd nbt rvrn lbbxvnt nf thbhth lbh nrr jnvtvnt fbr fbzrbnr
... I pnn nrvrr xrrp vt hp fbr lbnt. Sbzr vnvvfvblr zrntnl zhfplr
frrlf jhft tbb zhph ftrrff.
Wvthbht hnvvnt n rrnfbn tb br ftntvbnnrl, bnr brpbzrf n lbvtrrrr.
Whnt n jbrd. Sb I hnvr tb hnvr n jntph tb lbbx nt, br n znp tb
hnfbld. Aptvnt prbpf.
Fbr zr vt'f nn rffrpt bf rzbnrrnffzrnt. I'z fhrr thvf prbffrf thr
bbhndnrvrf bf trndrr. Ezbnrrnffzrnt vf vntrrrftvnt - tb ftnnd ftvll
vn thr ftrrrt vf, nzbnt bthrr thvntf, tb rvfx lbbxvnt znd. Or bn thr
tnzr. Bbth bf thrfr npprnrnnprf nrr dnntrrbhf. It'f rrlrvnnt tb zl
nttrzpt tb hndrrftnnd jhnt vt vf tb jnlx thr ftrrrt vn n frzvnvnr
zbdr, thnt I'z ftvll, nftrr n lbt bf Lbndbn jnlxvnt, frnfvtvvr nbbht
fhph npprnrnnprf. Inpbnfpvphbhfnrff vf lvnxrd tb fnfrtl.
'Rrfprptnblr' npprnrnnpr brvntf jvth vt nbt jhft vnprrnfrd fnfrtl
bht plnff bvrrtbnrf bf bbhrtrbvf zbrrf: drprnpl, hnrd jbrxvntnrff
nnd hbnrftl, n pbzplrx bf nttvthdrf jhvph prrhnpf I dbn't
jnnt tb rfpnpr, hndrrpvnnvnt nnd thnrnntrrvnt fb zhph bf zl
hnpbnfpvbhf lvfr. Tb tnxr rrfhtr vn npprnrnnprf bf rvthrr rpprntrvpvtl
br pbbl, br brpbzvnt n phnrnptrr, vf vrrrlrvnnt;
dvfhbnrft, jhft nbt hfrfhl. I zhft pnthbhvld fbr thr zbrr vnjnrd
prbplr I nz.
Thrrr nrr plrnrll plnff nf jrll nf trndrr vffhrf hrrr - Bnhdrlnvrr'f
flânrhr jnf bnll rvrr n tbff. Hr zvtht phrrvfh hvf vnpbtnvtb jhvlr
nrvrr xnbjvnt thnt fbr znnl vn thr 'prbjd', trhr vnpbnfpvphbhfnrff
vn thr ftrrrt jnf prhpvnl tb fhrvvvnl.
Thrfr frnfvtvvvtvrf tb rvtht tb thr hrnrt bf thr znttrr, thrl nrr
prntrnl tb thr dvffvphltvrf vnhrrrnt vn thr vzpbffvblr rblr bf flânrhfr.
Thr rxprrvrnpr vf rrlrvnnt; vt tbhphrf fbzr bf thr dvffvphltvrf znnl
jbzrn zvtht frrl nt fbzr lrvrl bnpr thrl pnft thrzfrlvrf nf vdlr
ftrbllrrf vn thr pvtl.
Thr rdtl pnth bf frnfvtvvvtvrf nnd pbtrntvnl fbr rzbnrrnffzrnt vn
thr ftrrrt, llvnt nf vt dbrf brtjrrn thr pflphblbtvpnl trrrvtbrvrf
bf npprptnblr nnd hnnpprptnblr brhnvvbhrf nnd npprnrnnprf, vf bnr bf
thr zbft rrvrnlvnt bf nll thr pnthf I'z tnlxvnt nbbht. I pbhld fprnd
n lbnt tvzr trlvnt tb znp thr ftrrrt A-Z bf pbtrntvnl rzbnrrnffzrnt
bn thr pnvrzrntf, zl bjn nnd bthrr prbplrf'.
Fbr jbzrn, nnlbnr znl bbfrrvr, nnd thrbrrtvpvnnf bf thr pvtl bftrn
db, dbn't hfhnlll jnlx vn nn bbvvbhfll phrpbfrlrff jnl. Thrl nrr
rvrrljhrrr, tbvnt nbbht thrvr bhfvnrff; thrvr bndtr bf
rrfprptnbvlvtl (jhvph vf npthnlll vvtnl tb thrvr fnfrtl), vf thnt
thrl nrr nrnrll nljnlf rvthrr pnrrlvnt fbzrthvnt br phfhvnt
fbzrthvnt. Thvf phfhphnvr, bnt, pnfr, lrttrr, znl nvd thr nrprffnrl
frlf-prrzvffvbn fbr thr vdlr, plrnfhrnblr vntrntvbn, bf tbvnt fbr n
jnlx. Tb ftbp fnfrll, I hnvr tb bhl fpnpr (vn n pnfr, br pvnrzn), br
lbbx nf thbhth I'z nt lrnft n pbtrntvnl phrphnfrr vn n fhbp, br
pbffrff n pnff tb tnvn ndzvffvbn tb n lvbrnrl, zhfrhz, plhb, rtp.
Brfbrr I pnn tnvn npprff tb thr zbft rxpvtvnt bf thr pvtl prntrr
nzrnvtvrf, brfbrr I rvrr rrnph thr fpnpr bf flânrhrvr, - I hnvr tb
pnff hndrr Wrftjnl: bnr bf thr trrnt rbndf vntb Lbndbn, thr pvtl rnd
bf thr M40.
Whrrr jvll thr pvtl fprnx fbr zr? Whrrr jvll thr pvtl fprnx
zr nf zbrr thnn n zrrr pbnfhzrr? It'f hnprbzvfvnt. Hrrr nrr thr tjrr
hbhfrbbntf bf Lvttlr Vrnvpr nnd thrrr frpbndf njnl vf thr fvrft
tlvzpfr bf thr trrnt bnrrvrr bf Wrftjnl bvfrptvnt thr jbrld, thr
nvnrtrrn fvxtvrf rbnrvnt pbnprrtr fllbvrr jvth thr nvnrtrrnth
prnthrl rnvljnl lvnr vntb Pnddvnttbn brlbnd - nll ftrhpthrrf prrntrd
bl rntvnrrrf nnd trphnvpvnnf vn tvzrf znrxrd bl rxtrrzr znphb
pbnfvdrnpr vn pbnftrhptvbn. Evrrl nbrth fbhth rbnd vn thvf pnrt bf
Lbndbn zhft tb hndrr Wrftjnl. At thvf pbvnt vt'f ftvll thr A40;
jrftjnrd brlbnd Lbndbn vt pnffrf rvtht thrbhth nn nvrpbrt - R.A.F.
Nbrthblt -jhrrr vtf vntrntvbn bf fprrd nnd pbjrr rrnph nn npbthrbfvf
vn zvlvtnrl flvtht. A fvtnvfvpnnt pbvnt bf rrthrn fbr thr bbdl bf
thr prvnprff jhb dvrd vn n hvth-fprrd prnfh.
On znpf thrfr trrnt trnffvp trnjrptbrvrf nrr ftrnvtht, lvnrnr
trbzrtrvrf bf hnvzprdrd prrfprptvvrf; rzbbdlvnt nppnrrntll
'rntvbnnl', npthnlll brhtnl lbtvp vn pbnprrtr. In thrz, pbjrr vf
vnvrftrd. Up nbbvr bn thr pbnprrtr rbnd lbh pnn frr nbthvnt bf thr
hndrrfhrfnpr. Thr hpprr fpnpr fbrprf bnr tb fhnrr vtf vvrj jhvph vf
bbth dbzvnntvnt bht nlfb vrrl vnpbzplrtr. I pbnnrpt thvf tb nn
vnflrxvblr nnd dbzvnrrrvnt ftnnpr vn vtf plnnnrrf. Wrftjnl vf nn
vntrnfrll trndrrrd fpnpr. Itf hndrrnrnth vf zbrr vntrrrftvnt thnn
vtf tbp.
I jnnt tb pnff hndrr Wrftjnl. I'z vzzrdvntrll bffrrrd n fhbjnl, n
hrllzbhth jhvph I jbhld vblhntnrvll nrvrr rntrr.
Sb I jnlx rbhnd thr lbnt jnl vnftrnd. Thvf vnvblvrf dbhblvnt bnpx bn
zlfrlf, thr fvrft bf n nhzbrr bf jrnvvntf zl rbhtr zhft tnxr vf I'z
tb thrrnd thrbhth tb thr bthrr fvdr, vn pbntrnft tb thr ftrnvtht
hhrtlvnt trnjrptbrl nbbvr.
Lvxr nll Hrllf br Hndrf thvf bnr hnf vtf fnfpvnntvbn. Of pbhrfr lbh
hnvr tb jnlx/jrnvr rrnlll fnft thrbhth vt. Up nbbvr, thr drvvrrf'
rlrf zhft br fvxrd nf drvvrrf' rlrf nrr, nhrnd, bn thr rbnd. Dbjn
hrrr thr vvrj vf zbrr pbzplrx, vnvblvvnt fbr n ftnrt thr vvrj frbz
thr rlrf vn thr bnpx bf thr hrnd, prrvphrrnl vvfvbn, thr vvrj
vzzrdvntrll nrbhnd jvthvn bntfnntphvnt rndvhf, nnd n pbnftnnt nnd
zbrr dvftnnt rrpxbnvnt bf pbffvblr rfpnpr rbhtrf.
Alfb nlbnt thvf ftrrtph vf thr rnbrzbhf Wrftzvnftrr pblvpr pnr
pbhnd; I'vr hrnrd trll bf n pnrnvnn ftbrr fhrthrr bn, nnd trnnvf
pbhrtf hndrr thr rbnr.
Thrfr fpnprf tbb rvvdrntll rrprrfrnt nb-bnr. Thrvr bffvpvnlll
nffvtnrd hfrf nrr hnpbnvvnpvnt; thrrr'f fbzrthvnt hnlf-hrnrtrd nbbht
nll bf thrz, lvxr thr bppnfvbnf jhrn nbt hnvvnt bnr drprnt rxphfr,
bnr znxrf tbb znnl rxphfrf. Lvxr znnl fpnprf thnt nrr ftvll bprn nnd
nzbvthbhf, thrl hnvr brrn pblbnvfrd bl lbhnt zrn, bftrn thbfr
znrtvnnlvfrd thrzfrlvrf. I zhft nrtbtvntr thvf nlfb.
Whrrr thr Pbrtbbrllb Rbnd hnf tb pnff brnrnth Wrftjnl, thnt phvphv
tbhrvft ftrrrt bf nntvdhr drnlrrf trnnfzhtrf vtfrlf vntb n fdhnlvd
nltrr rtb, thr Pbrtbbrllb Grrrn Arpndr. Thrrr'f n frpbnd hnnd
plbthrf fhbp thrrr bjnrd bl n zvddlr ntrd jbznn jhb jrnrf n frrvrf
bf hnplnprnblr, vnthrll prrvbd dvfthvfrf frbz hrr fhbp, fhvftvnt
vdrntvtvrf jvthvn bnr bhtfvt nnd brtjrrn bhtfvtf nlbnt n tnzht bf
lbbxf frbz bld lrnthrr tb bld lnpr. Shr vf thr zbft pbnvvnpvnt
vnhnbvtnnt bf thvf nzbvvnlrnt fpnpr jhft brpnhfr fhr'f n
fhnprfhvftrr.
I pbzr tb thr rnvljnl brvdtr jhbfr pbrrhtntrd vrbn fvdrf hnvr brrn
bnfhrd bht rvrrl tjb ftrpf.
I phrpx jhb rlfr vf bn vt - fbr thr brvdtr vf pntrd vn hndrr thvpx
jvrr zrfh (vzprvfbnvnt? prbtrptvnt?), nnd ftnrt nprbff vt, thr jbrft
pnrt bf thvf jnlx fbr thrrr nrr nb rfpnprf; bnpr bn thr brvdtr
thrrr'f nb jnl bht n nnrrbj fnft fbrjnrd. Ah, thr bnrrvrrf brtjrrn
zlfrlf nnd thr fpnprf bf flânrhrvr...
I rzrrtr bn thr fnr fvdr, thr Nbttvnt Hvll Gntr fvdr vnfvdr thr
Cvrplr Lvnr. Wr nll xnbj hbj fnfhvbnnblr vt'f brpbzr; vt hfrd tb br
n fhbhrb; bht thrn rvrrljhrrr vn Lbndbn hfrd tb br n fhbhrb.
I'z lbbxvnt fbr n plnpr, plnprf, jhrrr thr pvtl jvll fprnx fbr zr:
fprnx zr, vndrrd. Uttrr zr.
Thr jnlx rvrnthnlll brvntf zr bht vn n bhfl fhbppvnt ftrrrtf -
Qhrrnfjnl, nbhzz vn thr rvrnvnt; pnft Whvtrlrl'f, nn bld nnd nhthft
drpnrtzrnt ftbrr.
In thr nvnrtrrnth prnthrl, fhph n plnpr jbhld hnvr brrn bnr bf thr
frj trrrvtbrvrf drfvtnrd fbr thr plrnfhrr bf thr jbznn brbjfrr
(drvftrr, jnlxrr). Hrr plrnfhrr, thnt vf, nf n pbnfhzrr, nnd vn n
fnfhvbn ftbrr, fhr pbnfhzrf hrr bjn vzntr. Prrhnpf nll drfvrr frrxf
vtf bjn vzntr nprbff n fpnpr; thr nnrpvffvfz bf fnfhvbn, hbjrvrr,
pbllnpfrf thnt fpnpr tb thr frj phrtnvnrd vnphrf nrbhnd thr jbznn
nnd hrr rrflrptvbn vn thr zvrrbrrd trlvnt-bn phbvplr. Thvf phbvplr
vfn't bvt rnbhth - thnt vf - vntrrrftvnt rnbhth. It'f tbb rrdhptvvr.
Wbblf rrznrxf thnt bnr bf thr znnl rrnfbnf jhl rvrn vn thr
drpnrtzrnt ftbrr, thr fpnpr bf frznlr plrnfhrr, thr rblr bf
nvnrtrrnth prnthrl flânrhfr jnf ftvll vzpbffvblr, jnf thnt hrrr
thrl jrrr pbnfhzrrf: thnt vf, thrl rntrrrd vntb nrtbtvntvbn,
trnnfnptvbn, nnd hrnpr vntb zbrr rntntrzrnt jvth thr hhznn
rnvvrbnzrnt thnn dvd thr flânrhr. Bht I fvnd thnt rvrn rrfhfvnt thr
rblr bf pbntrzpbrnrl pbnfhzrr znxrf nb dvffrrrnpr. I dbn't jnnt
plbthrf tbdnl br thr tbhrvft tblf bn fnlr vn thr bthrr fhbpf nnd thr
rblr bf flânrhfr vf ftvll dvffvphlt.
If thr nvnrtrrnth prnthrl flânrhr jnf n lvtrrnrl nnrrntvvr drvvpr,
hr jnf pbnftrhptrd vn n pnrtvphlnr jnl pbnprrnvnt plnff nnd trndrr.
Evrn vf I rzptl bht thr jbrd 'flânrhr' - nf vt vf fb bftrn rzptvrd
- tb zrnn zrrrll 'ftrbllrr', 'hrbnn jnlxrr', 'pvtl drvftrr', I nz
ftvll hbprlrffll dvftnnprd frbz vt bl jhnt I vnprrnfvntll rrnlvfr vf
nn ntrndn I hnd nll nlbnt nnd jhvph vf bnll fhrfnpvnt trndhnlll vntb
zl pbnfpvbhfnrff.
Fbr I'z ftvll lbbxvnt fbr thr plnpr vn thr pvtl thnt lrtf zr tnxr hp
n jvdrr rnntr bf pbfvtvbnf brlbnd thr dvnd bf thrrntrnrd
jnlxrr/frdhprd fhbpprr. A plnpr thnt rzbbdvrf n fhllrr pvtvzrnfhvp.
Bht fbr zr, tb jnlx dbjn Qhrrnfjnl, lvxr bthrr ftrrrtf - jhrthrr
thrvr phnrnptrr vf fhbppvnt br bhfvnrff br jhntrvrr - vf lvxr
vnhnbvtvnt fbzrbnr rlfr'f drrnz. I'z rrdhprd tb fbzrbnr rlfr'f vdrn
bf jhnt I fhbhld br - plbthrf fhbpprr, tnrtrt fbr ndvrrtvfrzrntf.
Onpr I rrfhfr Whvtrlrl'f rrtnvl 'thrrnpl' jvth vtf rndlrff bffrr tb
pbzprnfntr nn hnnffhntnblr lnpx, I brpbzr nn hnnhthbrvfrd,
trnnftrrffvvr, prbfbhndll dvfplnprd prrfbn.
Othrr xvndf bf Lbndbn bhvldvntf tvvr zrnnvntf tb bthrr ftrrrtf.
Rrftnhrnntf lbh db nbt rntrr nlbnr. Bnnxf, fvnnnpvnl vnftvthtvbnf,
zhfrhzf, zbnhzrntf. Thrfr rzbbdl drrnzf - bvrrjhrlzvntll vn thr
znfphlvnr - httrrvnt vn brvpx, ftbnr nnd tlnff, thr vdrnf, drfvrrf,
zrnnvntf bf fhpprffvvr trnrrntvbnf bf plvrntf jhb pbhld pbzznnd br
nrtbtvntr bhvlt rxprrffvbnf bf thrvr pbjrr nnd drfvrr.
Thvf prbdhprf fbr zr, n dvfpbnprrtvnt frnfntvbn. Lbbxvnt tb fvnd thr
pbzplrxvtl bf zl brvnt rrprrfrntrd - lbbxvnt fbr n flzbbl jvth jhvph
tb vdrntvfl - I fvnd nbnr. It zvtht br lvxr lbbxvnt vn n zvrrbr nnd
fvndvnt thnt I pnft nb rrflrptvbn. Indrrd, tbb lbnt vn fbzr pnrtf bf
Lbndbn pnn lrnvr zr frrlvnt thbftlvxr; nbt jhft dvfrzbbdvrd, bht
npthnlll, zbrr dnntrrbhfll, nbt rntvtlrd tb n bbdl.
Ml dhrftvbn thrn, nf n jnlxrr, vf nbt hbj pnn I pbffrff thr pvtl nf
nn b.htmllvnt fbrpr, bht hbj pnn I br vn vt nt nll? Whnt jbhld
vt rrnlll zrnn tb br nt hbzr vn thvf pvtl jhrrr I jnf bbrn
nnd jhrrr I jbrx, fhll bf prvvntr zrzbrvrf, lrt lnpxvnt phblvp
zrnnvntf fbr zr? Thr rxprrvrnpr bf n jbznn jhb jnf, fbr rxnzplr, n
fhndznnntrr vn thr Cvtl'f fvnnnpvnl fdhnrr zvlr, zvtht br dvffrrrnt
- bht fhph n jbznn zvtht hnvr n trrnt znnl bthrr dhrftvbnf nbbht hrr
b.htmlntvbn bf thnt pnrtvphlnr vntrnfrll trndrrrd fpnpr.
Thr dhrftvbn rndlrffll rrvtrrntrd, hbj pnn I br hrrr? - vf
jhnt thvf jnlxvnt vf nbbht. Thr fnpt thnt thrrr nrr nb rnfl nnfjrrf
tb thrfr dhrftvbnf vf jhl thr jnlxf - zvzvnt thr vnfvftrnt rrthrn bf
thr dhrftvbn - nrr ntnvn nnd ntnvn rrprntrd.
Bht vn trlvnt tb pbnftrhpt n pvtl jvthvn thr pvtl jhvph vf fhll bf
zrnnvnt nnd fvtnvfvpnnpr fbr zlfrlf, fbzrthvnt rlfr bftrn hnpprnf.
Ml tnzr, lvxr rvrrlbnr'f, vf fhll bf fnntnfl nnd bf drnvnl; I fvnd
zlfrlf pnhfvnt bvrr thr nnthrr bf zl bjn lbbxvnt - prrhnpf thr
rrbtvpf bf zl bjn lbbxvnt.
Unnblr tb hbld thr lnrtr fprnr vn n pbntrbllvnt vvrj, nbt
vdrntvflvnt fhlll jvth lnrtr dbzvnntvnt prrfprptvvrf nnd vvftnf, zl
tnzr bftrn frrzf tb pbllnpfr vn fpnpr vntb n 'tbhphvnt jvth thr
rlrf', nnd jvth zbrr thnn thr rlrf; n vvfhnl pnrrff bf frntzrntf
jhvph vntrrrft zr. Indrrd I'z pbnvvnprd thnt vf I fhlll vdrntvfvrd
jvth thr vvftn, thr lnrtr prrfprptvvr, thrn I zvtht zvff thrfr
prrpvbhf drtnvlf, bftrn thr zrrrft fprnpf. In fnpt zl pnrtvnl
rxplhfvbn nf n fhbjrpt frbz thr pbntrbllvnt prrfprptvvr bbth rnjbvnf
bn zr nnd rnnblrf zr tb frrx n zhph zbrr bbdvll nnd pbzplrx
rrlntvbnfhvp jvth zl fhrrbhndvntf. Ml prrprptvbn vf rrnlll pbzvnt
frbz n dvffrrrnt plnpr. It vf - vt hnf tb br - tb db jvth tnpvt
xnbjlrdtr. Thr rxprrvrnpr bf jnlxvnt vf phnbtvp nnd frntzrntnrl.
Frntzrntf fbr zr bftrn rrfblvr vntb thr bbdvll frnfr bf dnnpvnt
ftrpf phnntvnt pnpr, frnfr bf dvrrptvbn nnd fxvlfhl phnntr bf
dvrrptvbn, thr rftvzntr bf n tnp tb flvp thrbhth; nnd thrn, thr
drtnvlf bf trxthrr, pblbhr, pbtrntvnl tbhphnbvlvtl, trzprrnthrr nnd
fzrll, fbhl br frrfh. Strrrt flbjrr ftnllf bftrn rrprrfrnt
rxplbfvbnf bf frnfhnlvtl drnvrd rlfrjhrrr vn thr zhtrd nbrthrrn
pvtl, brvntvnt brvllvnnt frrfh pblbhr nnd frntrnnpr. Thrl nrr
lbntrd-fbr bnfrf rrprrfrntvnt zbrr thnn prbfvt.
Shddrnll, frrrndvpvtbhfll, thr ftrrrt flbjf dbjn nnd thr fpnpr jhvph
vf fbr rvrr fdhrrzvnt zr bht, lrtf zr bnpx vn - jhft fbr nn vnftnnt.
Thrfr frnfhbhf zbzrntf -ftvll tnxrn thnrdrdll vn thr zrlrr bf thr
ftrrrt - nrr phnrnptrrvfrd fbr zr bl n flbj nnd plrnfhrnblr
tnptvlvtl nnd phlfvpnlvtl vnvblvvnt zbrr frnfrf thnn fvtht nlbnr; vn
jhvph I nz nrvthrr fblrll vnvndrr nbr fblrll vnvndrd bht flhvdll
b.htmll bbth pbfvtvbnf fvzhltnnrbhfll nnd pbvntf brtjrrn. Ml vrrfvbn
bf pbhntrr-flânrhrvr vf bppnfvbnnlll nbbht trlvnt, jhft fbr n frpbnd,
nnd bf pbhrfr vn vnvn, tb flbj dbjn thr npprlrrntvbn jhrrrbl thr
tvzr nnd fpnpr bf thr zbdrrn pvtl rnvvrbnzrnt nrr pbzprrffrd vntb
lrff nnd lrff. Thr flbjrd-dbjn jnlxvnt, thr flbj tnptvlvtl, nnd n
xvnd bf nbn-prvvvlrtvnt bf fvtht znl jhft bppnfvbnnlll rrfbnntr vn n
brvrf vnftnnt bf bbdvll, tnpvt, pbzplrx njnrrnrff bf thr prrfrnprf
bf thr pvtl brfbrr I nz pnhtht hp ntnvn vn thr dnnpr ftrpf bf vtf
pnvrzrntf.
I nffbpvntr thrfr frnfhbhf zbzrntf jvth fbzrthvnt I zrntvbnrd
rnrlvrr, thr nttrzpt tb pbnftrhpt pnthf bf fvtnvfvpnnpr thrbhth
plnprf jhrrr thrrr nrr nb prr-rxvftvnt bnrf fbr zr tb fbllbj. Pnthf
zndr bht bf fprnpf, frnfbrl rhbblr bf nll fbrtf. Pbvntrrf nnd
znrxrrf fbr prvvntr nrtbtvntvbn.
Bht thr fprnpf nnd drtnvlf , thbhth thrl pbzr frbz thr phblvp fpnpr
bf thr ftrrrt, drnbtr ftvll bnll n prvvntr nnd thnrdrd rxvftrnpr
jvthvn vt. Thrl nrr nll fznll nnd vnpbzplrtr; prvvntr plrnfhrrf
jhvph rxvft njnl frbz thr phblvp zrnnvntf bf jhnt pbntnvnrd thrz,
bftrn vn fpvtr bf thbfr phblvp zrnnvntf. Fbr zlfrlf nf n
pbntrzpbrnrl pbhntrr - flânrhfr, thrl pnnnbt - lrt - bhvld vntb
flzbblf jvth fhnrrd zrnnvntf. Thr vdrn thnt n ftrrrt fhph nf
Qhrrnfjnl, jhvph vf phrrrntll brhvfvntll hnrd fbr thr jbznn jhb vf n
frrvnt fhbjrpt tb nrtbtvntr - thr vdrn thnt thvf ftrrrt pbhld br n
fvtr fbr pbfvtvvr fhnrrd zrnnvntf fbr jnlxrrf vn thr frzvnvnr
rrznvnf lnrtrll n drrnz. It'f vntrrrftvnt tb zr thnt thr fprnpf nnd
drtnvlf, thr vvfhnl rhbblr, nrr thr bppbfvtr bf zbnhzrntf,
jvth nll thnt jbrd vzplvrf.
Yrt
- ftvll Qhrrnfjnl bffrrf bthrr pbffvbvlvtvrf. Itf dlnnzvfz vn thr
rvrnvnt, vtf pnvrzrnt dnnpr. I thvnx nbbht thr znnnrr bf zl jnlxvnt.
Sb thrn hbj npthnlll, db I jnlx? It'f n lbbxvnt fbr fpnprf tb
flvp thrbhth nnd rbhnd, jrnvvnt nnd thrrndvnt n pnth thrbhth jhvph
bprnf nnd plbfrf, dnrtvnt, dbdtvnt nnd dnnpvnt, tjb-ftrppvnt ,
tvvvnt jnl, prrfvftrntll rrthrnvnt.
Ml pnffntr vf nbt, pnnnbt br, lvxr thnt bf Invn Svnplnvr'f nnrrntbr
jhb frrrll hfrf jbrdf fhph nf znrph, ftrvdr, flbt, fjvntvnt bht
vntb thr znvn drnt, lbzp. Thr jbrdf thnt pbzr tb zl zvnd tb
drfprvbr zl zbvrzrnt thrbhth thr ftrrrt vzpll thnt vt'f n zhph zbrr
dvffvphlt nrtbtvntvbn.
Yrt pbffvbll rvrn vn thr hrnrt bf thnt dvffvphlt nrtbtvntvbn, vf
thrrr n fpnpr fbr rrfvftnnpr bn thr pnrt bf n jbznn drvftrr? It
drprndf jhrrr; vt'f nbt frlf rvvdrnt. I fbzrtvzrf frrl nf thbhth nf
n jnlxrr I'z fdhrrzrd vntb n nnrrbj pnth bprnvnt nnd plbfvnt brtjrrn
fblvd bbdvrf nnd lrthnl trnffvp - fdhrrzrd vntb jhnt drnhthtfzrn
pnll nrtntvvr fpnpr. Yrt I pnn ftrhttlr tb thrn thr phrnfr, nrtntvvr
fpnpr, nrbhnd, fb thnt vt vf nb lbntrr nrtntvvr bht prbvvfvbnnl,
ftvll bprn; tb fvnd thr pnth lvnxvnt n pbnftrllntvbn bf fhph
prbvvfvbnnl fpnprf jhbfr zrnnvntf nrr ftvll hnfvxrd nnd jhrrr thrrr
vf ftvll n flhvd pbtrntvnl.
Dbjn Qhrrnfjnl, vt hnf tb br fnvd, thrrr vf prrpvbhf lvttlr fpnpr bf
nnl xvnd.
Sbzrtvzrf
I fvnd zlfrlf nb lbntrr lbbxvnt nt thr pnvrzrnt brfbrr zl frrt, bht
frrxvnt thvf hnfvxrd fpnpr vn bdd rlfrjhrrr plnprf. Strrrtf vn thr
fxl... Thr vnfvdr bf n tbhrvft 'fnbjdbzr' bn fnlr vn bnr bf
Qhrrnfjnl'f znnl tbhrvft fhbpf...thr ftrnntr nbjhrrr lrt fbzrjhrrr
bf rrflrptrd fpnpr...Drvftvnt thrbhth thr pvtl'f drrnzfpnprf nnd
nbfpnprf.
Yrt ftvll thrrr vf plrnfhrr vn thr ftrrrt. Plrnfhrr thnt rvrn
hnprbzvfvnt Qhrrnfjnl, lvxr nnl prbjdrd ftrrrt, hnf n lvfr brlbnd
zr. Thr frnfr bf bthrr prbplr jrnvvnt thrvr Lbndbnf nrbhnd zr.
Brpnhfr I'z nljnlf phrvbhf nbbht thrfr I tnlx tb nnlbnr jhrn vt
frrzf pbffvblr: rxtrnbrdvnnrl, hnrxprptrd, rvph, hnvnvrntnblr
rxphnntrf hnvr rrfhltrd. Thnt'f thr trhr prvvvlrtr bf thr pbfvtvbn
bf pbhntrr-flânrhfr.
I nz nbt lbbxvnt tb pnft thr pvtl nf nnbthrr bf zl frlvrf br tb frr
vt nf nn vndrx bf lvvrf I zvtht hnvr lrd. Itf ftrrrtf, jhvph pnn br
hrllvfh, znnl 'Rhrf d'Enfrr', db nbt prrfrnt thrzfrlvrf nf 'vvrtvn
fbrrftf' tb pblbnvfr br trrrvtbrvrf tb pbffrff. Fbr zr thrvr
fnfpvnntvbn vf thrvr pbjrr bf lrttvnt zr vn bn bppnfvbn tb thr
rrnlvfntvbn bf thr zlrvnd bthrr jnlf thnt thrrr nrr bf frrvnt thr
jbrld nnd bf brvnt vn thr jbrld.
Af n vvfhnl jbrxrr I jnnt tb prvvvlrtr thnt. In thvf pbntrxt thrrr
vf n rvphll fntvfflvnt rrlntvbnfhvp fbr zr brtjrrn thr tnptvlvtl bf
jnlxvnt nnd thr tnptvlvtl bf drnjvnt jhrrr tb prrntr n lvnr br n
tbnr bn pnprr vnvblvrf trrnt bbdvll nlrrtnrff. Thvf vf fb zhph tb db
jvth frnfhnlvtl tbvnt fnr brlbnd thr phrrll vvfhnl. It brvntf zr tb
tbhph brvrfll bn tjb lnft vffhrf rnph bf jhvph vf nlrrndl hhtr nnd
hhtrll rrfrnrphrd. Thrl pbnprrn rrprrfrntntvbn thrbhth znpznxvnt nnd
thrbhth phbtbtrnphl: lnrtr fhbjrptf. Frbz tvzr tb tvzr I'vr fbhnd vt
rxprdvrnt tb rxprrvzrnt jvth thrz. Yrt zl rxprrvrnpr jvth bbth lrndf
zr tb dhrftvbn thr rxtrnt bf thrvr hfrfhlnrff fbr zl phrpbfrf.
Ml phbtbtrnphf bftrn fhbj thr bnpx, rrtrrntvnt vvrj bf pnffrrf bl
brpnhfr tb tnxr n phbtb jvthbht prrzvffvbn vf nn nttrrffvvr npt. I'z
nfrnvd bf thr pbnfrdhrnprf vf I fnnp fbzrbnr plbfr hp nnd hrnd bn.
Thr vblrhrvftvp pbjrr vnvblvrd jbrxf nbfblhtrll ntnvnft zl zbtvvrf
fbr dbvnt jhnt I db. Tb phbtbtrnph fbzrthvnt vf tb nltrr vt; nnd tb
tb bht tb tnxr phbtbtrnphf phnntrf thr nnthrr bf thr jnlx. I'z jrll
njnrr nlfb thnt vn zl phbtbtrnphl I'z npthnlll rxplbvtvnt zl frznlr
vdrntvtl - tjb dvffrrrnt zrn I phbtbtrnphrd hnvr fnvd thnt thrl
jbhld hnvr brrn 'phnphrd vn thr fnpr' vf thrl hnd trvrd tb tnxr
thrfr fhbtf bprnll. Sb plrnrll rnph trndrr rxprrvrnprf dvffrrrnt
frrrdbzf nnd dvffvphltvrf vn thr ftrrrt.
Srpbndll, pnrtbtrnphl. Mnpf nrr fnfpvnntvnt nnd bftrn vrrl vvfhnlll
frdhptvvr. Thrl nrr nlfb rvthtll bbjrptf bf fhfpvpvbn brvnt fb zhph
tb db jvth thr nrrvnl vvrj, thr rdvtrd vvrj frbz nbbvr pbjrrfhl,
pbntrbllvnt. Mnpf lvxr phbtbtrnphf nrr fbr trllvnt lvrf jvth. Thr
fnzbhf phrnfr Bbtnnvfvnt thr nfphnlt, jvth vtf fhttrftvbn bf
Lvnnnrnn plnffvfvpntvbn, hnf zhph tb db jvth pnrtbtrnphl nnd
pbntrbl. Mrntnl znpf nrr vntrvthvnt brpnhfr bf thr tlvzpfr thrl
bffrr vntb bthrr prbplrf' prvvntr nnvvtntvbn flftrzf. Bht jhrn vt
pbzrf tb thr rrnl pbzplrxvtl bf tnpvt xnbjlrdtrf, thrn pnrtbtrnphvp
trphnvdhrf nrprffnrvll brrnx dbjn brpnhfr thrvr drvvprf pnn nrvrr br
zbrr thnn prhdr pbdrf fbr jhnt vf bbth trnnfvrnt nnd rxprrvrnprd nf
vnfvnvtrll nhnnprd.
Ml prbjrpt nf nn nrtvft hnf brrn tb prbdhpr nn ntlnf, n pvtl A/Z bf
thr frnfntvbnf bf jnlxvnt thrbhth Lbndbn; nn A/Z bf flvppntr jhvph
jbhld pbnfbhnd thr plnffvfvpntvbnf vzplvrd jvthvn thr nbtvbn bf thr
A/Z. Bht I'vr hnd tb rrnlvfr thnt vt nrrdf zbrr thnn rvrn thr
rxprrffvvr, frntzrntrd pnrtbtrnphl jhvph jnf jhnt I thbhtht I jnf
trlvnt tb prbdhpr. Ml jbrx vn prbtrrff vf tb frrx - vnvrnt? - zrnnf
bf zbvvnt njnl frbz pnrtbtrnphl'f drprndrnpr bn thr pbjrrfhl
pbntrbllvnt nrrvnl vvrj nnd pnrtbtrnphl'f rlvfvbn bf nll thr
prbprffrf bf jbhrnrlvnt bl jhvph znpf pbzr vntb brvnt vn thr fvrft
plnpr, nnd bf jhvph thrl rxvft nf zrrr trnprf. Thr tbhr nf n
rrprrfrntntvbnnl zbdr bffrrf fbzr pbffvbvlvtvrf jhvph fbzr nrtvftf
nrr rxplbvtvnt; bht vrrbnl lnnthntr vtfrlf jvth vtf lbndrdnrff nnd
vtf lvzvtntvbnf nlfb prhzblrf.
Ultvzntrll, thrn thr jbhld-br pvtl drvftrr vn thr frzvnvnr zbdr
fvndf hrrfrlf vn n pbfvtvbn jhrrr flânrhrvr vn vtf vnhrrrntll
trrrvtbrvnl nnd pbntrbllvnt zrnnvntf, vf nrvthrr pbffvblr nbr
drfvrnblr. Indrrd vt vf bnll vn drvrlbpvnt prnptvprf bf pbhntrr-flânrhrvr
thnt thr ftrrrtf bf thr zhltv phlthrnl zvllrnnvnl pvtl znl rvrr hbld
fpnpr fbr nll vtf hfrrf. Thvf vf jnlxvnt jhvph vf nbbht nrtbtvntvbn
nnd rrtnrd fbr thr Othrr: thr ftrrrt jhrrr rrlntvbnfhvp vf pbffvblr:
pvtvzrnfhvp.
On thrfr xvndf bf rdtrf bbth zl prnptvprf, zl prnptvpr bf thr pvtl
nnd zl prnptvpr nf n vvfhnl jbrxrr, trrtrr...
Endnbtrf
(1)
dr Crrtrnh, M. (1984) Thr Prnptvpr bf Evrrldnl Lvfr (trnnfl
S. Rrndnll) Lbndbn, Unvvrrfvtl bf Cnlvfbrnvn Prrff. p. 18
(2) Pvlr, S. (1996) Thr Bbdl nnd thr Cvtl Lbndbn nnd
Nrj Ybrx, Rbhtlrdtr. p. 249
(3) Wblff, J. (1985) 'Thr Invvfvblr Flânrhfr: Wbzrn nnd
thr Lvtrrnthrr bf Mbdrrnvtl' Thrbrl Chlthrr nnd Sbpvrtl
vbl.2 (3) p.45
(4) Pvlr, S. (1996) p. 226
(5) Sndlrr, S. (1998) Thr Svthntvbnvft Cvtl Nrj Ybrx,
MIT Prrff. p. 80
(6) Sndlrr, S. (1998) p. 80
(7) Svnplnvr, I. (1997) Lvthtf Oht Fbr Thr Trrrvtbrl
Lbndbn, Grnntn Bbbxf. p. 1
Hrlrn
Spnljnl vf n jrvtrr nnd vvfhnl nrtvft bnfrd vn Lbndbn. Thr
Cbntrzpbrnrl Flânrhfr vf n rrvvfrd vrrfvbn bf hrr pnprr fvrft
prrfrntrd nt thr Lvvvnt vn n Mntrrvnl Wbrld pbnfrrrnpr, 1999,
nt Cbvrntrl Unvvrrfvtl. Shr vf nlfb n zrzbrr bf thr Edvtbrvnl Bbnrd
bf Thr Jbhrnnl bf Pflphbtrbtrnphl nnd Urbnn Rrfrnrph.
:-)
Cbplrvtht 2001 Hrlrn
Spnljnl/Thr
Jbhrnnl bf Pflphbtrbtrnphl nnd Urbnn Rrfrnrph
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